After discussing with Mr. Hu, Mr. Liu, and my family, I decided to go to the office tomorrow to pick up my passport. I’m particularly nervous about dealing with work-related matters—all the procedures and approvals—but I have no choice but to face them. I reached out to former colleagues, mentors, and people involved in the relevant processes, chatting with them for a while. I’m also hoping to find time tomorrow to have a meal with them if possible. ...
c Today was a blur—I spent three hours gaming with Fei Ge. In the morning, the Emergency Management Bureau called me to ask some questions, marking the beginning of the investigation phase. In the evening, I suddenly learned that my CSC application had been approved, which immediately triggered my anxiety. So I wrote a letter to my advisor explaining my worries: letter_202506182210. What wasn’t mentioned in the letter was my reluctance to part with Huanhuan. Long-distance separation brings more pain to those in love, but it can also forge stronger support.
14:04 Checking CSC Just saw someone on Xiaohongshu say that the results for the CSC (China Scholarship Council) program in the Americas region have been released. I nervously checked immediately, but nothing yet. I’m still quite anxious—worried about the Emergency Management Bureau’s upcoming inspection, concerned that the Gui’an announcement might drop soon and schedule a physical exam, and now also stressing over the CSC results. 14:19 Can’t Stop Thinking About the War Ever since learning about the military actions between Iran and Israel, I can’t help but constantly refresh social media for updates during my free time. Maybe it’s a survival instinct, but as an individual, I can only be a bystander, which somehow deepens my anxiety. ...
I didn’t do anything today. Got up in the morning and cooked a big bowl of rice noodles. The noodles were bought yesterday, but since the weather is hot and they won’t keep for long, I decided to finish them all today. At noon, I cooked another big bowl and fried two eggs, ending up stuffed. I really should eat less in the future. In the afternoon, I still didn’t do anything. I felt a bit anxious about the CSC results, the Emergency Management Bureau results, and the Gui’an results, so I checked them over and over again. ...
10:07 Organized Some Files The Vault folder was a bit messy, especially the Obsidian templates and project folders. Did a quick tidy-up and also added a reading log template to encourage myself to read more. 11:00 Feel pretty good Today, my body feels fine with no discomfort, which has lifted my mood quite a bit. The courier called to notify me to pick up my ID card. After retrieving it, I strolled to the market and bought rice noodles, spinach, and cilantro. I ended up cooking too much rice noodles and ate until my stomach was bulging. ...
Morning In the morning, I watched some English videos for a while and played some games. I steamed and ate the rice cakes I bought yesterday, and then, before I knew it, noon had passed without me realizing what else I had done. Afternoon This afternoon, I read Letter from an Unknown Woman. I listened to the audiobook1 while following along with the English translation I bought on Duozhuayu. The narration of the audiobook was very emotional and captivating, so I finished it quickly. Since I’m not yet very familiar with English, I suspected I might have missed some details. So I searched further, thinking of checking others’ interpretations, and came across this video2. ...
It might have been the unclean food I ate yesterday, but I woke up this morning feeling dizzy and groggy. Taking a shower didn’t help, and my stool was a bit loose too. I just lay in bed until noon, not even wanting to eat. By the afternoon, I felt so unwell that I forced myself to go out for a walk, though I was completely drained of energy. Passing by a rice cake shop, I noticed hundreds of stacked steamers inside and thought the cakes must be good. I bought one, broke off a piece, and it turned out to be quite tasty. ...