It’s hard to get up this morning, and it was still dark 7 am. Chathuranga said his wife didn’t feel well, so he needed to take care of his wife. Therefore, I went to the gym alone, and this is the first time I went to gym alone. After that, I did the homework 3 of Rock Mechanics and assignment 7 of FEM. They are really time-consuming. I played the game for about 1 hour tonight, it’s boring but I didn’t have any energy to do anything else. ...
Group-meeting again, #Jian didn’t nominate me to be the #host. They were so kind to me, but I felt a little bit bad. Actually, I don’t mind being the host, though I’m a little bit shy and worried about my English. There will be a quiz tomorrow, so today I spent a lot of time reviewing the materials. I hope I can do well in the quiz. Jain said he would have an #experiment for me in summer, which is from the industry. So I can get some money from it. That’s good news. I hope I can do well in the experiment and get some money. ...
I’ve realized that I shouldn’t share too many personal details during group meetings. Sometimes professors might misunderstand you or even form negative impressions. From now on, I plan to stick strictly to reporting the facts. I finally finished an assignment for my Finite Element Method (FEM) course. However, I fell into the trap of tinkering with my editor and software again until 5 PM. It’s a habit I really need to break, as it consumes too much of my productive time. ...
Chathuranga is back and brought us gifts - fridge magnets and jasmine tea. Very nice. We had lunch together at noon. Our regular group meeting at noon was uneventful. Started learning about Typst and FEM, then began studying VIM. After dinner at home, continued learning VIM. This editor is incredibly difficult to use.
Sensitivity There was the group meeting today, and I don’t like it due to my sensitivity. But it’s useful to let me face my sensitivity and change it. I always thought others will judge me for my ability or my behaviors. I knew that was not right, but I can’t control it sometimes. Amir gave me a great support, and I really appreciate him. I think I shouldn’t always emit the negative aspect to others. I need to change my mind and be brave. ...
Life Last week and weekend was better than the week before last week. I got better sleep, Although most of time it’s through the help of melatonin, and now I’ve been trying sleep without melatonin. It’s harmful for me if I relied it for a long term. Last Saturday, Dr. Zhao and I went to Jollibee near the West Edmonton Mall to eat fried chicken. It’s really good and satisfactory. ...
Life Last week was a busy week, and I found that I couldn’t fall asleep well. I got insomnia last Thursday. It was a strength that the more I wanted to fall asleep, the more I couldn’t sleep, especially when I forced myself to sleep. I told Amir this was the same reason for learning English; the more I wanted to learn English well, the more I couldn’t. The critical key is enjoying, decreasing the expectation, I think I will get better. ...