Tinkering with tools is incredibly time-consuming. This morning, I spent about an hour and a half adjusting my #LazyVim configuration.

During today’s group meeting, I felt more confident. I was able to talk fluently about some of my recent experiences. Next week, Amir and I should schedule a meeting with Victor.

In the afternoon, I spent some time working on the FEM term paper. Daytime never seems to be enough, and my work efficiency has been quite low. Perhaps I need to extend my working hours.

When Chathuranga messaged me,“Are you coming to campus today? No right?” I replied, “Yes I will”. Actually, I need to finish the assignment 5 of FEM, Feb 19 is the deadline.

It’s was a nice day, though the snowstorm is so heavy. The snow was flying horizontally directly.

Luis also came to the office today, we had lunch together. He have never seen the Chinese Nuts before, I shared a few of that with him. After that, we decided to go skiing this staturday.

I also found something that fun but not very moral – The Chinese guy who is very social to me, is worse than me in English speaking. I first time felt how was I in other perspectives when I was speaking English.

Unconsciously, my English is gradually making progress slowly, like I said before.

There is so much worth recording today. Since it’s getting late, I’ll write this down now and keep it for my records.

First, my English-related anxiety eased up significantly today, especially after attending classes with Derek and Victor. I was amazed to find that I could understand nearly 90% of the content; the remaining 10% didn’t hinder my overall comprehension at all. My confidence in English is finally coming back.

Another thing I noticed during class was that Victor seemed exhausted and low on energy. I really want him to feel better, so I’m planning to gather my courage and stop by his office tomorrow just to chat for a bit. I realized that many people need care and connection. In their own worlds, they might be bogged down by trivial, stressful matters and simply need a chance to relax and talk.

In the evening, Huan forwarded me a photo of He You that Xiao Xue had sent. It occurred to me that I hadn’t talked to them in a long time, so I spent some time chatting and joking with them in our group chat. Those old days were so happy, especially during my first two years of university. Here, there isn’t such affordable hotpot, cheap alcohol, or friendships that feel quite that pure.

Things that seem difficult can lead to surprising changes if you just persist day by day. Whether it’s for a dream, a passion, or the future, it is worth sticking with the things that might cause short-term struggle but lead to long-term growth.

Chinese

今天有很多值得记录的事情。因为时间太晚了，就直接用中文记录吧，明天再翻译成英文。

第一就是今天的英语焦虑好了一些，尤其是上完 Derek 和 victor 的课之后。惊叹自己能够听懂几乎 90%的内容，而其他的内容已经不能够影响理解。英语自信又回来许多。

另一个就是在上课的时候，发现 victor 总是感觉很累，感觉很缺少能量的样子。我希望他开心一些，所以我打算明天鼓起勇气去他办公室里闲聊一会儿。突然发现很多人都需要别人的关心，他们在自己的世界里面可能会被各种各样琐碎烦心的事情困扰，他们需要放松和倾诉。

晚上小欢欢给我转发了小雪发的何优的照片，想着很久没有找他们聊天了。于是在群里和他们吹了会儿牛，以前的时光可真快乐啊，尤其是大一大二大时候。这边没有那么便宜的火锅，没有那么便宜的酒，也没有那么纯粹的朋友了。

看似很难的事情，一点一点的坚持，突然会在某一天发现有惊喜的改变。对于梦想，对于热爱，对于未来，都应该去坚持做一些短期会让自己痛苦的事情。