Along the way, Huanhuan bought some roasted corn and roasted potatoes. The roasted corn was quite tasty. When we passed by a pharmacy, Huanhuan wanted to buy melatonin for me, but the price was over 100 yuan—way too expensive. I had checked the price on Meituan before, and it was only around 30-40 yuan. So Huanhuan just placed an order online instead. By the time we got home, the delivery person had already arrived.

After eating, we immediately headed to catch a bus to Shuicheng. Since I have class early tomorrow morning, I needed to get to Guiyang tonight. It’s always tough to get transportation after a holiday—the bus tickets were already sold out until 3 PM. Luckily, we found a taxi for just 60 yuan, so I hopped in. Huanhuan went to refund the bus tickets.

The two-hour trip ended up taking twice as long due to traffic, and by the time we arrived in Shuicheng, it was already very late. I also had my mom’s medicine and a medicine jar with me, so I quickly took a taxi to drop them off. Coincidentally, they were having dinner when I arrived, so without hesitation, I grabbed a bowl and took a few bites.

I immediately took another taxi back to where I was staying, took a quick shower, and with a very clear mind, packed everything neatly. Then, I hailed another taxi and headed to the train station.

Then began my bizarre and sensitive day.

This morning, I spent the entire time working on the annual salary report. When I delivered it in the morning, I was met with a barrage of criticism, and when asked about some unit issues, I was at a loss for words. It seems I’ll have to let Sister Nan handle it herself and make a trip.

In the afternoon, I went to the Labor Bureau to submit materials for public welfare positions. The person in charge of receiving the documents wasn’t there, so I just left the materials on her desk and came back. I’ve been thinking about buying a small potted plant for Sister Nan, and across from the Labor Bureau is a flower and bird market. I strolled around the market entrance but didn’t find anything particularly attractive or that I wanted to buy. On my way back, I saw someone selling potato skins, bought half a kilo, and then noticed an elderly man buying two pots of flowers. I thought they looked quite nice, so I asked the man where he got them. He pointed me in the direction, and upon entering again, I saw several fresh pots of carnations. I picked one out, haggled the price down from 20 to 15, and settled on 18.

Sister Nan also gave me two novels, which I can read and learn from when I have some free time later. In the evening, I cooked rice and called my brother to come back for dinner. I added a bit too much water, but it was still passable. My brother also bought some braised beef; I fried some potato skins, but they didn’t taste very good, far from what my mom and the others make themselves.

容易热。办公室热乎乎的，应该是楠姐昨天忘记关火了。

11:01 跑腿回来

去人社局和公务员局呆了一早上，把事情办妥了。

回来楠姐和我说，她下个月要被抽调去组织部两个月。杨科长那边说活多的话可能会多叫我多干一些。

“下个月我事情会比较多，CSC申请，省考和事业单位联考都在3月份。如果是把我当做正式工来干的话，那我就不干了。” 我很平静地说。

这是我很大的进步，换做以前这种话我是说不出口的。以前我总是怕说出类似的话会让别人不开心，记恨我，然后很长一段时间自己默默在心里内耗。

现在感觉直接说出来会好很多，心里也不用藏着各种乱七八糟的事情。我想这种心态应该无关乎见习还是正式与否，任何利益、权利与责任不匹配的时候，我们都应该直接拒绝，否则人会持续处于一个低气压的状态；若是其他的人临时请求帮忙另说。

整个社会有两种和谐相处状态：一是每个人都照顾他人，考虑他人的感受；二是每个人都优先考虑自己的感受，同时不有意给别人造成负担。

这两种状态都会很和谐，不同的人会选择不同的相处状态，这是很自然的事情。做出不同选择的人在社会上、工作中碰到一起的时候，这种和谐状态就势必会被打破。和谐也自然不存在，谁会受到更大的影响，会丢失更大的幸福感也是显而易见的。

也不难得出结论，每个人自己优先考虑自己、学会拒绝别人和接受别人的拒绝，将会是和谐状态最终形态。

在两种人混杂的社会，谁若没有及时做出这样的认识和改变，那么就会持续处于一个痛苦的状态。同时也要深刻认识到，这样的改变并没有什么不好！

12:27 小跑回家

洗个头，头发油油的，手都不大愿意碰到了。

15:20 复印装订完一堆材料

现在好多的工作流程过度留痕太严重了。一套表我是订了拆了印，装上，拆了订了印，装上，拆了订了印。这还只是一个领导的……

每复印一次，订书针就会留下两个小点。每本材料已经密密麻麻的了。无语……

一会儿去公务员局给人查档案。

16:20 又跑累了

今天又是一整天在外面跑，呼呼呼，坐车总是晕晕的。

17:14 做完一套题

昨天下午和今天挤着时间做了一套行测，题目并不难，还是不理想。有很多需要加强的地方，周末早上可以抽一段完整连续的时间来模拟一遍真实考试。

19:44 吃火鸡面

今天上班有点累，早上偷偷眯了几分钟。下班就听着歌一路小跑跑回出租屋了。

给小欢欢打着视频，打开小电炉。乘机连菜带碗的把昨天没吃完的炒豌豆放在火上烤着，开电磁炉煮了碗火鸡面绊倒碗豆菜里。差点忘了还有一个水煮蛋，蛋黄捣碎搬到火鸡面里，打开吱吱的可乐。又是美好的一顿，进到胃里面的可乐拼命的往外跑，变成一个个饱嗝。

对了，昨天用政府消费券还买了一盒爆浆小豆腐，烤了好几块。烤出来的小豆腐比较干，不粘辣椒面，然后蘸着碗里残留的油脂，再蘸一下辣椒面。好吃！

眼睛有点难受，想睡一会儿。还没睡着，哥哥下了个早班回来了。本来他想带我出去吃的，我叫他回来烤小豆腐炸洋芋火腿肠吃。没炸，我起来也给他弄了包火鸡面，还煎了两个鸡蛋。又继续烤小豆腐，吃青萝卜，喝着可乐。今天对于哥哥来说也应该是美好的一天吧。

不知道怎么的，打了好多的字没保存上消失了一样。可能是不小心按到键盘了。

22:52 明天周五了

和小欢欢又要见面了，喜悦。